Hey Heartless, are you alive?

You thought you know, but you have no idea.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Social studies sucks.
My mind was full of stuff to blog about, but theres nothing in my pea brain now.
I'm on mc..
so what?
THERES FREAKIN' BIATHLON THIS SATURDAY AT NGEE ANN POLY! woo.

You think you know but you don't know a thing
You think you understand, but its all pretend.
apparently you don love me, cause you've hurt me.
Tears from me, stabs from you
Have i not had enough? enough of your fucking comments about my life.
I thought you knew better.
I was wrong about you.
say whatever now. I'm not trusting you ever again.
Never again.
You've just insulted me fool.
In my face i must say.
You felt guilty
Try doing something. its not gonna work.
Get out of my sight this instant.
You left me no choice
but to hate you this time.
I don understand you anymore dad.
Bruises Fade Father,
But the pain remains the same.

destroy the silence {9:27 PM}

Goodbye tomorrow.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

IM HOME!
just came back from pam's. I'm suppose to be doing my homework and studying now. SHITZA. I cant wait for tonight. :D My peeps are going sheeshaing again.. once again.. once again.
JoeyPeng was being a freak digging his blocked ears the whole night (even this morning). I tied leslie's hair! check this out. (done by yours truly!)

LOVE IT!
Bong was an irritant. hahahah trying really hard to snatch the bed from me. pfffft. I miss gwen and baybi! i was super high last night, i felt quite sick too... plus the cat pierced through my flesh when i carried it. damnnnnnnnnn painful, i cried. hur xD.
Bryan snores damn loudly when he sleeps.

Hate the cough.

PAM! CAN YOU LIKE NOT GO.

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true, could you really be
EACH TIME I SEE YOU I FEEL THE PAIN.
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in love
THE PAIN, FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO MEET YOU AGAIN.
I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Please give me a reason to believe
Say, you're the one
That you'll always be
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP
It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say
I HATE TO SEE YOU GO, THOUGH I DON'T SHOW.
Before I fall in love..
I LOVE YOU PAMMY BABY.

destroy the silence {3:07 PM}

Anything at all to break the silence.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

I heard about your trip.
I heard about your souveneirs.
I heard about the cool breeze in the cool nights, 
And the cool guys, 
That you spent them with. 
I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you. 
I said to you that i love you.
Don't you see, don't you see, 
That the charade is over? 
And all the best deceptions,
And the clever cover story awards,
Go to you. 
So kiss me hard cause this'll be the last time that I let you. 
No matter what happens, I'll be here for you.
You will be back someday, 
And this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips, 
Will be of service to keeping you away. 
I didn't mention- more than life.
I heard about your regrets. 
I heard that you were feeling sorry. 
I heard from someone that you wished you could, 
Set things right between us. 
I guess I should have heard of that from you.
I guess I should have heard of that from you. 
Its not so easy to let you go, but i need you to know,
Don't you see, don't you see,
That the charade is over? 
And all the best deceptions, 
And the clever cover story awards, 
Go to you. 
So kiss me hard cause this'll be the last time that I let you. 
I did it. but i still love you. Hey bummer,
You will be back someday, 
And this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips, 
Will be of service to keeping you away. 
To keeping you away. 
I will always be here for you. Its Just a phone call away.
I'm waiting for blood,
To flow to my fingers.
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.
Ignoring the phone. 
I'd rather say nothing. 
I'd rather you never heard my voice. 
You're calling too late, 
Too late to be gracious. 
And you do not warrant long good-byes. 
You're calling too late. 
You're calling too late.
You're calling too late.
I've let you go.
Its not easy at all.
Don't say everything is working when everything is broken.

destroy the silence {6:45 PM}

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Picture not so perfect. Bryan cant be seen man! its okay bryan, i will replace it with another photo!

Today was fun. ok not very, but quite. BUT I FUCKING DROPPED MY PHONE. *heartcrashed*
Leslie, baybi and bryan met me outside school today (everyone was staring at leslie, probably wondering whether his a girl or a boy) ahhahaas. anyhow, we head to compass and town. laughed quite abit. i miss all the old days.. if only im not schooling.. oh wells. thats my life.
Have a good day folks.
Lynn misses those times.

It's been a year now since you were here now And 
I've been trying to heal inside Dedications have all
been placed And I see your resemblance in my
face And on our birthday I said an extra wish for 
you (for you) 

And I have learned so much since you've been gone 
And I have done so little for so long So now I'll
settle up my grievances And focus on the savory
And wave all these discrepancies away And I'll
peter out these misconceptions Give out faith at
my discretion Live a life that you would think was
sane (sane)

Displaying changes That they have made And I 
wonder if you ever really wanted it this way And in
your memory they even hung a plaque for you
(for you)

And I have learned so much since you've been gone
And I have done so little for so long. So now I'll 
settle up these grievances And focus on the 
savory And wave all these discrepancies away. And
I'll peter out these misconceptions, Give out faith
at my discretion Live a life that you would think 
was sane (sane)

destroy the silence {8:31 PM}

Sunday, January 21, 2007

im high.. im high .. damn high.. slpy.. yawn. byebye.
got to wake up at 6+ 7am tmr.
Hello every one
Lynn adele chng speaking.
HAHAHAHHAHAHS.
fuck la. bye

destroy the silence {1:54 AM}

Barenaked.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Never been in love
Cause a girl like me
Never had someone to care for 
Never thought there could be
Someone special for me
But now I'm all in love 
Cause a girl like me waited patiently 
For someone 
Someone to care for me
And there will never be 

No more lonely
No more just me 
I've been there before
Ain't going no more
And now that you're here
I never wanna say, goodbye love
Never want to be without you 
No more crying 
No denying 
I'm in love with you 
And now that you're here I
I never want to say goodbye love

Now it's time for me 
To find out what a first time love could mean 
A little scared, but it's cool
Cause it's worth it
Now I finally fell in love
And I know that it
Gots to be for real (for real) 
It's the way that I feel
So come share my world with me
So there will never be

Now I'm standing here
Arms open wide 
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life 
Baby, I know things change 
And that life needs some rain 
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again 
Shine light on our love, baby 
So let's make this last forever

destroy the silence {10:05 PM}

BoooYall World.

Monday, January 15, 2007

School's damn retarded now..
Today is kinda the first day we start lessons proper, and like I've recieved quite a number of work to do already.
Training was tiring too. (maybe cause the last time i train was.... damn long ago)
I miss all my friends. I'm sure they miss me too! hahaha =DDD

Hey Rockstar, I'm secretly in love with you. if you would let me in and chase me like you mean it.

The secret star.
All Rise.

destroy the silence {6:19 PM}

Monday, January 08, 2007

Believe it or not, i took that picture. (2 Years ago)

ar.. Books makes me puke.

destroy the silence {8:05 PM}

oooo BUgger!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

SHITZA!
Lessons starts tmr.
The rest are still out and i'm home already. How sad is that mann..
Boo O-levels Boo Boo!

Things i will remember about today.
-Salt Session
-Exchanging socks with amerie.
-Lydia's Sexy 17th! +DDDDDDDD
-The super de duper Horror movie. (the spirit of the victim)
-Leslie. He made me cry
-Saf. I was holding onto him the whole movie
-Bong. He Fucking screamed the whole theatre.
-Zacccc. Hii! Wo shi APPLE.
-Marisse. She makes me laugh all the time.
-$1 Hot Dog.
-Liz. SHE fucking poked my eye.
-Udong Noodles.
-milk.

I want my Special Party this year.

destroy the silence {10:43 PM}

Love isn't all that disturbing.

Friday, January 05, 2007

Sometimes the truth hurts, But you will only hear the truth from the people that love you.

If you judge a person, you don't have the time to love them.

When love hurts, there is no hurt, only more love.

sometimes you show your love by hatred.

You don't have to be with someone that you love to be happy, True love is seeing your loved ones happy.

Just be there, Its more than enough to show you care.

If you really love somebody, nothing around you matters at all. Not the comments, not the looks, not the way they move.

Listen, you might miss out on some words.
Open your eyes, you might not see the light.

destroy the silence {7:16 PM}

Good, we're at the right path.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Hello 2007!

2006 was the most hardcore/retarded/happening/miserable/exciting year ever in my whole entire life.

Oh goodness, I'm turning 17 in 3 months time, how great is that. I'm so excited. I'm Old..... :X

Since I'm not allowed to leave the house today, i shall make use of this time to thank all my friends one by one... if possible.

Eunice
Thanks for all the laughter and fights. You have been a great Godsister/Nagger/Bestfriend and i'll never forget all the times we had together, that includes all the fights. (brr... you can really piss me off)
Your trustworthy.
well, Happy new year and I love you so very much!Really!

Goon crew (that makes 11 of us)
Thanks for being there for me in 2006! =)
Love yall.

6B2T(that makes 8 of us)
Hello girls. yay reunite tmr!
MY source of laughter.

Liz.
Your ruining my life.
but at the process of ruining my life, you brought much laughter into it.
(that includes intentions of digging my organs out and feed the pigs)
Your such a bummer!
LOVE!

Ian
hey bro
YOUR THE MOST ANNOYING THING ON EARTH.
but thats the only thing that makes ian.
INTENSE! you know what i mean..
LOVE!

Marvyn
Sorry for breaking your heart like two years ago?
i was young i didnt know what i was doing, i guess i did the wrong thing.
(maybe thats why im getting all this shit now. krama)
well anyway your a really great guy, im sure you will find much better girls when you hit ur JC life. HOT GIRLS.... YEAH! hahahhaa Now we're talking.
More heart to heart talks soon! +DD
thanks for all the advice!
LOVE!

caleb, rico, brendan,audrey, tiff, phyllis, berwin, gwen sheena gen henry jo gabe teogabe frans, nigel, dada, dodo, kat, clar,alll all alll allll
love you guys so much.. =) i miss yall already

Marc
Your the one i wanna thank the most.
your like a fatherly figure to me. its a good thing.
thank you for the times you've spent with me crying and all.
i will never forget somethings that you've said
I love you.

Bong.
Hey dear one.
time really flies.
your Os are done. MY Turn now. brrrrrrrr.. chabai. LOL.
You brought alot of laughter into my life. Its good to have a close guy friend sometimes.. but your still damn annoying. I know i am too! muhahah!
anyhow, i still love you!
without you.. theres no me today.

Joey
Hey boy,
Thanks for the year and all. hahaha
Your a really great friend to have! Without your retardedness i think our outings will be damn boring. Thank YOU for that.
I'm Glad you spoke up and thought things through.
I totally understood whatever you've said.
Lets just push the retardedly miserable days aside and remember all the fun and laughter we had.
Remember No matter what happens, I will always be here for you and I love you as you.
(remember Joey rocks!)
(oh ya hope u like ur bday present. tho i think You will like jojo's stuff more.)
ahaha
LOVE!!

Irwin martin and all the IHM ppl.
Hello there!! hahahahhahaha mann mann mannn..
i have no idea where to start.
Thanks for stepping into my life.
God BLESS.
Love you guys.

Holly & chloe
would yall stop fighting!
hahhaa two beautiful ladies shouldn't scream at one another in public.
hur yall so funny.

Leslie
Hello girlfriend! hahaha nono wrong.
hahahaha topman guy.
Your cash like never ending sia.
anyway. You make me laugh! Love muchhhhh!
lets hardcore more after my Os!

Zac.
Hey ya big guy! h
ahaha Thanks for the Blanket. +)
I can feel the brotherly love there.
CLUBBING ROCKS.
and ZAC ROCKS TOO.

Safith
Hey chocolate honeystar! (seriously where did that come from?)
I lub chew veh veh much!
i love your hugs too! =DD
Hang out soon k!

Cherylann Kool Kucumber.
Hey SISTER.
5 days in a row was no joke.
but i love those days. retardedly funny and super hangloose. =)
well i think we can't have so much of that anymore until my Os are done.
after that we can hardcore again!! i hope.
come my hse anytime k! its only a few metres away! =))
Love love!

Priss!
Where have you been girl!! i miss you!! we should hang out soon!
Love!

Bryan GOLDFISH!
hahahahahahahah spastic child!!
your a nice person to talk to! h
ahaa we will club soon!
ok not so soon..
hahaha LOVEEE!

avery, paolo, kc, gabe, spencer, spencer and all
thanks for everything!+)

sorry if your name is not mentioned, their in my heart.

longest post ever.

Just a gentle whisper
tell me that you care
leaving only memories
where did we go wrong?

destroy the silence {3:26 PM}